This I believe…BELIEVE

Faith is to believe what you do not see; the reward of this faith is to see what you believe.

-Saint Augustine

This I believe…—what? Here I am, 5:00 pm Sunday night, 2 hours before my blog is due and completely stumped. The entire weekend I had thought I knew what I was going to write about.  This I believe…believe in your own faith. It was a risky theme; did I even believe in my faith?   

More confused than ever, I dropped everything relating to the assignment and turned my attention to my messy room.  I thought I might as well clean up and do something productive while I waited for a spark of inspiration to come to me. Unfortunately for another 45 minutes, nothing came. As I was gathering my scattered papers, binders and writing utensils that had somehow found their way under my bed, the thick binding of a decently sized book caught my eye. It was my Bible, a vast text I had owned since I was a small child and had disdained for the last few months. It had become a thing I would only take with me to church on Sunday, and return in its exact position as soon as I got back. Other than that, it went no further distance. I had treated it like it was an object that had been forced upon me, even going to church on Sunday was purely because my parents took me; I had no real will to actually go there. Although there were many enjoyable passages and admirable stories to read from the Bible, something about it all just baffled me. I had grown up all my life being taught that this was the way, but was it really? My mind suddenly wandered to group discussions we had had in class before concerning the novel Night.

Where was the proof? How did they actually expect people to believe such tales? What was the point of it all? Did God actually exist? And if he did, how could he let such bad things happen? If God really existed couldn’t he just force everyone to obey him?  

I sifted through the pages of my Bible quickly, catching the colours of passages I had highlighted over time. All of a sudden, a small sticky bookmark caught my eye. I turned to the place, ending up in Genesis 6:3. The verse was highlighted bright green, indicating a recent highlight. It read, “Here I am! I stand at the door and knock. If anyone hears my voice and opens the door, I will come in and eat with that person, and they with me.” Revelation 3:20 (NIV)

I had read this verse many, many times before. It had just been some verse to me. But somehow today it made sense to me on a whole other level, probably because I was searching for something to type onto my blog. I quickly went to my laptop and typed the verse. I read it over and over again until something came to me.  Slowly thoughts began to form in my head.

If God was really there, he didn’t force anyone to obey Him, even though he totally could have if He wanted to…so why? Because of love…? Who would believe such? In a God they couldn’t even see?

I sat for 10 minutes, the reason not completely sinking in to me.  The Bible was full of analogies and metaphors that sometimes made no sense to me, but this time I was truly dumbfounded. I didn’t even know if this was true. I wasn’t sure if this actually made sense or if it provided me with any proof. I glanced at my clock and the time read 6:30. I was running out of time. I clicked my chrome browser and googled the words, “What is faith?” The first thing that popped up was Hebrews 11. The title itself was “What is faith?”, so it was the first thing I clicked. The very first verse read, “Faith means being sure of the things we hope for and knowing that something is real even if we do not see it.”martinlutherkingjr105087

I scanned the passage further and came across verse 16 which read, “ But they were waiting for a better country—a heavenly country. So God is not ashamed to be called their God, because he has prepared a city for them.”

Also, verse 34, “They stopped great fires and were saved from being killed with swords. They were weak, and yet were made strong. They were powerful in battle and defeated other armies.”

In those verses, I saw something that made me come to a great realization.

“But they were waiting for a better country.”

“They were weak, and yet were made strong.”

I concluded that it didn’t matter whether there was evidence or not. All I needed to have was faith. That faith would provide me with the comfort and ease of heart I needed.

Be faithful in small things because it is in them that your strength lies.
-Mother Teresa 

I suddenly realized that this was probably why many of the Jews maintained their faith in God and kept praying to him. God was a symbol of hope for those who believed in Him, a hope towards a “better country”. Whether he really be there or not, he served as a tower for those who were weary to rest their heavy-laden heads upon. People ran to Him when they were afraid, and he gave them a feeling of safety, peace of heart, and a form of strength to continue on when they decide to put their trust in Him.

This thought itself reminded me of another verse,

“For the LORD is a strong tower, the righteous run into it and they are saved.” Proverbs 18:10 (NKJV)

Had it all been coincidence that I had found those passages? Or perhaps it was meant to be—to revert me upon the correct path. I choose the latter. The Bible may have been a book of instructions to follow, but they were meant to lead me in the right direction so that I could live a better life. Simple things like loving your neighbor, being a good person. There was certainly no harm in believing in those things.  I am not here to preach, or to convert, I am here to state what I believe; have faith.



References:,. ‘Biblegateway.Com: A Searchable Online Bible In Over 100 Versions And 50 Languages.’. N.p., 2015. Web. 13 Sept. 2015. 

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4 thoughts on “This I believe…BELIEVE

  1. Dear Timi:

    You have blown me away; the way in which the workings of your mind unraveled itself throughout this piece was executed with both sophistication and precision. The line that stood out to me the most, however, was this: “It had become a thing I would only take with me to church on Sunday, and return in its exact position as soon as I got back.” It unified the purpose of your writing in a way I can’t explain – it gave the tone of your piece a dynamic feel, if that makes sense. That is to say, it suggests that your faith didn’t leave you a mark to carry around with you; it was simply an ornament. In a sense, it never truly left the position that you place it in. It didn’t change you.

    But then the tone changes, and so does your mentality about God. Then, just like that, the reader dives into a beautiful relationship between your beliefs and the novel Night.

    “They stopped great fires […]” – this line is also another one of my favourite references because of it ties into the symbolism of flames in Night (please pardon the fact that I couldn’t italicize this; Edublogs isn’t cooperating) , where fire consumes faith.

    In regards to constructive criticism, adding more detail about your personal revelations would take your writing piece to the next level. While the simplicity of your thought process is captivating, elaborating the significance of your personal beliefs would enable the idea of pathos to probe deeper into your reader.

    Also, the cleaning of your room…was that a purposeful detail? Because I found it symbolic of how as you were tidying up your room, your belief in God and faith had also subsequently cleared up. Whether it was intentional or not, I think that it illustrates your talent as a writer.

    Thank you for giving me an opportunity to explore your mind,



    1. You’re welcome Queeny, and thank you!.
      I am so happy you noticed my use of symbolism of tidying up my room as a form of “tidying up” my faith. I wasn’t sure if I had tied it in correctly but by what I’ve read in your comment, it seems that I did. I also used verse 34 of Hebrews 11 on purpose because it spoke of fire; a very significantly symbolic theme in the novel Night; I am glad you made a reference to that too. 🙂
      I will take your advice on adding more detail to my personal revelations. I too as I was writing, felt that I could have added more. But as I was pressed for time I never got the chance. I will keep this in mind for my next blog 🙂
      Thank you for all the lovely compliments and have a wonderful weekend! ♥

  2. Dear Timi,

    I was immediately intrigued by your post after the first paragraph, because it is exactly what I went through. I think you really wrote well about the topic of faith since it can be so controversial. It was written beautifully and simplistically which is what drew me to it so much.

    The way you related Night to your own life and how you feel about faith was really interesting, I think that Night really opened a lot of our eyes into relationships with God and how faith can be extremely important. After reading this, I felt like I connected with you. I think it was amazing how you asked the questions that many people think, but not many say out loud.

    My favorite part of the whole post was in the last paragraph where you said,” I am not here to preach, or to convert, I am here to state what I believe; have faith.” This is a mindset that people all over the world should have when speaking about their perspective, religion, or view on any matter really. I feel like I learned a lot from just this sentence, so thank you. I am really excited to get to know you better this year and I’m sure your writing will only improve.

    With love,

    1. Thank you!
      At first I was really concerned about this topic before I had even completely thought up a theme, because as you said, it is very controversial.
      I was also afraid of what others that read my blog would think of me, as I have expressed being a Christian before and people showed GREAT disagreement with my views and judged me because I was religious.
      I am glad that I gave you something to learn from! 🙂 I never thought I would ever be able to do something like that and I am proud that I have done so.
      I also look forward to getting to know you this year as well.
      As I am still a bit new and don’t know a lot of names please make sure to point yourself out to me! 😀
      Thank you for all the great compliments and have a great weekend Alysha ♥

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