Explain to me why
Why do you feel the need?
To look into my eyes
And tell me I’m not worthy
Though you didn’t use words
Your facial expressions said everything.
I don’t even know if you held me
My eyes cannot remember the time they saw your face
So the next time
You think about me don’t remember my name.
See I can’t stand you.
When I opened my eyes, I probably woke up to see the most amazing person that has ever lived
It was her and not you
Where were you?
Probably too busy I guess.
When my brain began to connect ideas together
You were probably connecting with other people
When it should have been me
But I see.
I see that you never cared
You bought me presents like that could sustain me.
What, so now you’re getting soft?
Do u finally see?
I often wondered if u were blind
Because clearly you couldn’t see me.
I was filled with beauty they said
They said I didn’t want to leave her womb it was probably because I was waiting for u
You had one big head but no brain to fill it
They said I got a lot of things from you
That’s hard to believe because I’m not cruel like you
You bought me dresses
You called me your princess
That’s too bad I didn’t have a prince
You were supposed to show me what I had to look for.
My eyes couldn’t open
I guess because I didn’t want to see you
I didn’t want to have a picture in my brain with no personality to fit it
I would have been scared
Too scared to tell u that I couldn’t stand you
You never showed
I had to blow out my candles
The same way I blew away visions of you
You did nothing for me
Nor do I ever want you to
I am sick and tired about thinking of you
I want to say goodbye
But I have to see you
I have to take
One good look at you
Until I can’t look any more
Until you feel uncomfortable
Until you know what it’s like to be looked at and wondered about.
The things you have done
Is unspeakable of
I have no memories
You showed up once in a while
I guess when you felt like it
So I’ll show you
I feel nothing when I look at you
Except bitter hatred.
I can’t stand you.
I ask of you
The fact that I don’t know what you look like
Doesn’t that say something?
Open your eyes for once
You are truly the man in disguise
You live in the mask
Of hidden truths
I can’t stand you.